12 You gave me life and were very kind to me. You cared for me and watched over my spirit.
13 But this is what you hid in your heart. Now I know what you were planning for me.
14 If I sinned, you would be watching me so that you could punish me for doing wrong.
15 If I sin, I am guilty and should be cursed. But even when I am innocent, I cannot lift up my head. I am so ashamed because of all the troubles I have.
16 If I have any success and feel proud, you hunt me down like a lion and show your power over me.
17 You bring witness after witness to prove that I am wrong. Again and again you show your anger as you send army after army against me.
18 So why did you let me be born? I wish I had died before anyone saw me.